No pretty picture today

Nope; no pretty picture today. "No cracker?" "No, no cracker." Poor Buttons...

*clears throat* Anyway, it seems the boyfriend and I may have to deal with joblessness in the near future. When I first got the call I was upset over it, but about ten minutes later I had written him an e-mail to tell him everything would be fine. I just wanted to post a small piece from that e-mail because it was surprisingly uplifting and somebody else might benefit from it. (Even though no one ever looks at my blog.)


If you lose your job, trust me, we will find a way to make things work. It's ok to be upset over it. I really would be, too. But you can't let *name removed* get to you. There are going to be tons of people loosing their jobs. TONS. And they're all going to be upset but they're all going to be ok. The only difference is that they'll go through months of misery and depression and probably failed relationships because of it before they realize that everything turns out alright in the end. YOU on the other hand, are smart enough (and you have me to tell you!) to know that it will all be ok.

Just go into this transition knowing that the universe has it all under control. Whatever is meant to be, will be, and whether we like it or not we still have to go with it. We are never given anything in this life that we can't handle. Maybe part of your life's "contract" (I posted on this idea in a previous blog) is that you need to experience joblessness and learn to be thankful for the tiniest of things. Who knows? All I know is that I love you, and I support you, and I hope you will handle whatever happens with dignity and gratefulness.

"A grateful heart does not want." - Be glad for what you have; no matter how small.

We can do that. We'll be fine. <3

I dunno, I found it pretty helpful just writing it. Maybe it will help others. I hope so. I always feel like I can do no good in this world.

I have an exam tonight, for which I do not feel prepared. I never feel prepared for tests unless I've been studying for two weeks. Lately, that is just not possible.

I am on day ... what? 3 now? Of my raw diet. Technically, it's more like day 5 or 6 but those first few days I let myself have a few "cheats" so I'm not counting them. Today I have had a glass of water, some grapes and blackberries (I spilled half of them on the floor and was SO upset. What a waste.) 3 bananas, and a portion of a green smoothie. The boyfriend is already bugging me about dinner and I have NO idea what I'm making. He hasn't been very willing to help me make anything so far. Or clean up afterwards, which is making this diet VERY stressful for me since there can be a lot of prep that goes into big, raw meals. It's been the cause of a few arguments so far. I keep trying to remind myself that he's probably cranky because he's going through a detox, but it's really tough to not just fly off the handle. :( I gotta go meet a friend for lunch (salad and more green smoothie).

Ok, um, bye.