That is pretty much how I felt all day today. I don't quite understand why since I've been doing so well lately. But, today I was very self-deprecating. I am very upset over my relationships at work. I've been feeling extremely unwanted. Y'know that feeling you get when you can tell people aren't really listening to you, but are just kind of nodding at you to make you hurry up and finish talking? That's what it feels like when I'm at work. Like they're just waiting for me to finish talking so they can go on with their lives. I can't even go into all of the things that happened today. I spent most of the day in a state of embarrassment and wanting to cry.
I am so disappointed in myself right now. All of my recent hard work to take care of myself should be helping me out of this state, but it's not. I have decided to just go with it, and "live in the moment" and feel the sadness. I just needed to vent... I have no one that I feel like talking to right now.
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